New semester has started.
Planning to finish this one with a "Bang".
I've got some good lecturers, some slow.
Anyway, I told Mslmah that I'm a hopeless romantic. That this whole thing is silly and Love is stupid.
Honestly, not sure if it's the person i'm with or the idea itself.
We all know that T and I are Not going to last. I've seen weddings, the exchange of vows. Sometimes i do imagine but then halfway, i choose to dismiss the idea.
Sure, living in the same house with him would be excitingly fun but .. living in the same house with him "till death do us part"? I don't think so. Not ever.
What's sad is that i've got his whole family going "Sister-in-law" on me. It's not them, it's him. I do love them: Meli, his nephews, etc. They're adorable people. But him in particular, I just can't find myself to trust.
The amount of tossing and turning on my own bed drives me insanely crazy because i don't know what he's up to and if he's easily lying to me again. i know he's not but my doubt for him is still present. Although he says i should not be worried about anything, I still do.
I'm doing a lot of favours for him: saving his money for transportation, fucking caring for his cat, etc. The idiot doesn't think long-term. He's so intelectually and gramatically deficient.
There is absolutely nothing about him that impresses me.
So why?
Beats me.
