Hi.
So It's R's birthday today. Happy birthday.
I had an argument with T. again.
This time he's not the issue. but I know that he never was the issue. Well, not anymore.
I am.
I'm so problematic. What is wrong with me? Why do i have this constant pushing and pulling of people who love me?
I despise my parents but at the same time i get defensive when people talk bad about them or don't try to fix my relationship with them.
What do i really want?
Life. enough is enough.
My suffering is causing me to inflict unnecessary pain to the people I love.
